growl

I've been astoundingly grouchy of late, which is why there has been a lack of cheerful new year posts. It was all going so well (more or less) until some sad stuff went down with my grandma and me and my team at work got put at risk of redundancy. Yay! Next week I get to re-interview for my job and then only five of the current eight of us will get to stay. I am not feeling great about it all; I've been doing a lot of vigorous washing up and hurling things into the recycling bin to soothe my angered soul. Also lots and lots of cleaning which is partly because I do that when I'm stressed, and partly because a weird smell has invaded our kitchen (Harri thinks someone next door might have died leaning against the wall...)

I thought I was successfully not really thinking about it too much, but then I realised that my work deskmate and I have been eating constantly, finding ourselves staring mournfully at the un-fruitful internal vacancies list and genuinely considering careers as tube drivers. That's not good. I'm sure it will all be fine but it is making me evaluate things, which as you know makes me uncomfortable. So my apologies to anyone who has to encounter me over the next couple of weeks.

For now, I have a plum, some chocolate coins, the Yentl soundtrack and the rest of a bottle of wine to sort me out.

x

Listening to: THE YENTL SOUNDTRACK OK.